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Brain Donors

Brain Donors (1992) IMDB rating: 6.20 Plot: Three manic idiots; a lawyer, cab driver and a handyman team up to run a ballet company to fulfill the will of a millionaire. Stooge-like antics result as the trio try to outwit the rich widow and her scheming big-shot lawyer, who also wants to run the ballet.

Actors: Turturro John,Nelson Bob,Smith Mel,De La Pena George,Savident John,Alexander Spike,Thomas Warren,Monday Dick,Ciotti Michael,Grossman Gary,Comedy,

Feel depressed, all the time..suicidal thoughts since age 10?
Ok, well, here goes. My life has kind of sucked, since I was very young. I'm 16; my father was a sperm donor, so it's just been my mother and I my whole life. I grew up in a trailer park, but when I was 9, my mother got a brain tumor. It was partially removed via surgery, but a portion was unable to be removed for fear of severing the significant blood vessel onto which the tumor had grown. For further correction, she was treated with radiation. This left her with debilitating headaches as a prolonged side effect. She has a family history of migraines, they have plagued her occasionaly since her twenties. The radiation treatment aggravated this, to a great extent. My mother could hardly function properly, and now, in addition, on any given day she could be crippled by an intense migraine headache. For a while, we lived off social security and food stamps. I was embarassed to bring friends to my home, as it was a rather old and beat up trailer. In 6th grade, we moved one town over, because we couldn't afford our rent anymore. Our only option was a home for the elderly and disabled, because our rent would scale with income. As you can likely imagine, I was further embarassed to bring friends back to my place. This left me slightly socially awkward, as I was fairly shy. A few years later me moved down the street to another set of apartments that this same company managed. It was much older, though it was more cozy. I finally didn't have to take an elevator to my own house! I was moderately less embarassed to bring people over. But that happiness did not last long. Our neighbors that lived in the apartment above us had mental illnesses, and were extremely stubborn in general. They would refuse to sleep in the night time, like the rest of the world; they had to sleep during the day and everyone else *had* to shut their damn mouths, sit in a corner and suck their thumbs all day so they wouldn't be disturbed. Reality check, bitches. As well, they were not quiet people. They would bang and stomp all night long. When they were mad at us for waking them up during the day, they would stand above one of our bedrooms at 3 or 4 am and drop a bowling ball multiple times; it was quite obnoxious. Once, they even called the cops on me for watching TV too loud dduring the day. I assure you, it was no higher than 15 decibals. One of the two was bipolar; the other had a social disorder. On average, I got 1-2 hours of inconsecutive sleep each night. As you can imagine, come thursday or friday, it became extremely difficult to drag my ass out of bed. This led to me missing alot of school, which led to more social awkwardness. Just recently we moved back to the first apartment complex that this management company owns. Once again I am embarassed to bring friends to my house, and under no conditions would I bring a girl back to my place here. For one, it's full of old ladies; some are insane, literally. They have nothing better to do with their lives than sit in the middle of the hallways on the recliner chairs watching everyone, then gossip about it later that night in the community room downstairs. Imagine how quickly word would get around were I to bring a girl to my place? That leads to an extremely awkward conversation that I don't feel like having with my mother. I spend alot of time on my own, though inside, I crave positive attention. I'm extremely lonely, and my moderate shyness is not helping. Puberty was, and is, fairly difficult to go on your own. Sometimes I get sexual urges that are just so strong, there's absolutely no point in fighting it. The use of the internet to.."fix" that problem doesn't really help, either - it only makes me crave the real thing even more. As well, because of my slight social awkwardness, pubescent laziness, and lack of challenging material, I've always despised school. Yet every morning I still drag my ass out of bed and force myself through another awful day. My grades have been slipping lately, because I just don't care anymore. Sure, college is in the back of my mind screaming at me to get off my lazy ass, but I have no motivation. Life just sucks. Well..I've felt slightly depressed for quite a long time, though it wasn't until recently that I've lost most regard for my personal safety or wellbeing. When I was younger, my grandmother would often bring me by my cousin's place to visit my aunt, her two daughters and her son, Charlie, whom we all called Chaz. Charlie was always more like a father to me than a cousin; whenever I came around, he just dropped whatever it was he was doing and took me to play basketball next door or would try to teach me to play the electric guitar. But about a month ago, his apartment burned down, and he never made it out. My mother was seriously affected by his death, and she talks about him almost daily. I myself am NOT the type of person who wants to talk about these things. I prefer to deal with my shish on my own. My mother would badger me to talk, regardle

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dude ok listen to me you have all the reason in the world to have these feelings but you have so much to live for just think happy thoughts screw the depressed feeling make yourself happy think about happy things don;t succumb to these feeling it's a hard to think like this but once you got it will work remember just think the past is the past nothing you can do but you can encourage a better future you only live once what's the point in having bad thoughts enjoy life while you can only have one life to live
Derek | Dec 11, 2009

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Sanford: You big DUMMY you haven't even finish typing the rest.
Report me to yahoo b i t ch | Dec 11, 2009

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well , my friend you must to go with a professional as: therapist becuase is important, don't think that it is stupid and silly. Now, is normal to see a lot of people go to a professional. Remember: you must to go. Don't forget?
Gean | Dec 11, 2009

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you've had a rough upbringing.. its good you've managed to write down your thoughts, i'd say before you start to change your life you should find a way to channel your emotions and depression.

maybe you could even write a novel about your experiences as you seem quite good at wording what you want to say if you try. it'll get things off your chest.

later on you need to try stop using your past as a reason to feel down and out. change the way you think about the situations your in and only make the best of it. think positively. you are in school, work hard and use it as a temporary escape.

doing well, despite circumstances makes you a strong man.
good luck
fabian_hamkens | Dec 11, 2009

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Call the suicide hotline in the phone book to vent your feelings and have someone to talk your problems out with and they will give you ideas and referrals for help.
sunflowers | Dec 11, 2009

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It's very unfortunate, but nevertheless a reality. Life is sometimes a bit**. You are justified in feeling worried or uncertain about things, we all do, but MUST COPE. There is no other way but to stand strong, re-assure youself, and survive. Yet, we can pause for moments of grief and anxiety, as long as we do not dwell on them, or let our fears take over. Obviously you are sensitive, and would rather succeed and feel better, if not happy most of the time? Perhaps you can share this with a teacher, priest, pastor, friend or relative, doctor or psycholgist. It may just be a chemical imbalance with serotonin, dopamine and endorphins. The appropriate medications are SSRI's, or I prefer one little Mirtazapine pill, see a doctor and get started building your future.
Van Bo | Dec 11, 2009

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Don't hurt yourself. Know that God can help you live a better life if you want Him to help you. You can have a personal relationship with God by saying the prayer below. God is our Creator, all-knowing, all-powerful, eternal, holy, love. God loves us and sent us His Son, Jesus Christ, so we can go to heaven if we know and follow Him. Forever means without end -- time on and on without death. Forever is what happens after we die. Either we go to heaven and be with God forever, or we go to hell which is very bad and painful forever. The good people who are saved believers in Jesus Christ go to heaven. The bad people go to hell. We need to know and follow God in this world to get to heaven in the next world. We follow God by loving and obeying Him and loving others for Him. Jesus Christ, God's Son, is our bridge to God. Jesus died on the cross to cancel our sins. We need to accept Jesus into our life as our Lord and Savior forever to receive God's blessing and forgiveness plus go to heaven to be with God forever after we die. This is about being a born-again Christian. Faith in God is a gift from God. You can pray for faith in God. Just speak out and ask God for the faith to believe in Him and to follow Him. Some people find faith in God when they realize the beauty in the world is made by God. Evolution can't explain the world's natural beauty, for example, the parks in the world, animals, flowers, peacocks, sunsets, butterflies, rainbows, etc. After you have your faith on, you can pray a sinner's prayer to be a born-again Christian. This prayer is very important and should be said with a sincere heart and faith in God. This is the prayer: "Dear God, I know that I am a sinner and that Jesus Christ is the sacrifice for our sins. I have done the following sins (state these out) and I pray to discontinue these sins. I pray to receive Jesus Christ into my life as my Lord and Savior forever. In Jesus' name, amen." I'm Lutheran and I like the Baptist churches too. You could check out a Christian church and also see about their weekly Bible study group as a good way to learn about God's will for your life. You can pray to God about your daily life and have a Christian church pray for you.
peacelove | Dec 11, 2009